Sleeping sweeties!

Sawyer is obsessed with Benson. He has to know where he is at all times, he has to know what he is doing, and he has to make sure he's fed, clean, and happy! I try so hard to have them nap at the same time in the afternoon because if Sawyer is awake then Benson will be! Today I got them down at the same time and about 40 minutes later Sawyer was up! Of course first thing he asks... "where's Benson" well he was up in my bed. I told sawyer he could lay by him if he was so quiet. He was so quiet (never happens) he went and laid by him. Next thing I know they are both out an Sawyer is holding Benson's hand. Sweetest moment! It made this EXTREMELY hard week seem so easy and worth it. It's the little precious moments that matter and make us step back and say yeah I can be home all day alone see Braydon for 1 hour every day, deal with tantrums, deal with tears, deal with being away from family... Just being lonely. We can do this! We will do this! This small moment made the difference this week. I honestly wasn't sure if sawyer and I would survive! Life is so hard and so amazing right now! We are really blessed.

kentucky randoms

We love going to all about kids. Sawyer always has so much fun but this time he was a lot more brave. i think lily really helps him get brave. Benson of course was so good.

blurry shot of our sunday walk at anchorage park

sawyer always think he needs to push benson

thor and captain america... we also have ironman and spiderman

clean boys

They were laughing at each other and I walked over and sawyer looks up at me and says "you can't be with us mom we're best friends" so he made me walk away. I am so glad they love each other.

just looking so big sitting the corner there

Sawyer loves to sit in bensons bouncer seat. he thinks its such a fun place to lay down and watch tv

Sawyer got on all his bike gear at about 3pm because he wanted to have his dad take him to ride his bike... his dad usually gets home at 6 for dinner for about a half our and by the time 6 rolled around sawyer didn't want to ride anymore.

Poor sawyer... we were leaving the gym and they had these ground lights and he touched it. of course it didn't have a protective covering on it and he got 2nd degree burns. It broke my heart

I know they look bad but this is them healing. Poor guy!
lately I have been feeling like i have been failing as a mother. Sawyer has had so many accidents lately... but at what point do they stop being accident and start being my responsibility. It seriously has been breaking my heart.

typical morning

he loves his jumper...  A LOT

Oh dear!

He is just going to feed benson

Benson hanging out at calypso cove. He loved watching sawyer run around and he loved getting sprayed by the cool water misters

Sawyer running though the splash pad

Sawyer trying to show off his scar and his lost tooth

Chubby baby

Sawyer took this picture! it's so funny

Sawyer loves when i do his hair crazy after the bath.

Benson laughing about something

Sawyer at the dentist... he had to get an x ray making sure his mouth was healing properly. He was really brave.

He loves to chew on those two fingers and he usually gags himself.

He is so happy!

Tired boy... GO UTES

Just playing on his "puter"

He woudln't close his mouth when his hood was on... he thought it was so bizarre

Getting benson in the morning.

Hiding in benson's pack n play when daddy was coming home

I love this!

Our dear friends katie adam, and baby emma ( in katies tummy) came to visit us! We had the best time and felt jipped when they had to leave on monday. It was so fun to have company! We miss you guys and want you to come back!! Sawyer loved bossing adam around at calypso and loved katie. He still asks for them.

playing in mama's bed in the mornings.

always hugging or kissing him

I told you he loved his jumper

always trying to make him laugh

telling him about bumblebee

another crazy hair do

we found sawyer cleaning the kitchen flour... naked

we walked to the grocery store...everyone gave us dirty looks. you can't tell but the whole base is full of groceries and benson's feet are on top of some too

just hanging out in bensons car seat

playing in his tent

having a dance party with lily

so long summer! you have been good to us. Our last swim day.

he loves to be on his tummy and then he climbs over the bobby pillow and rolls over to his back. it scares him every time

Just some light reading

I know what you are thinking... why are you talking pictures while your baby is bawling his eyes out. Well, this was going on for two hours ( he rarely cries) so this was s big deal and i took them to send to braydon to get him to come home because someone must have been really wrong for him to cry and cry like this

That is sweat around his neck he was so upset and squeezing my hand just trying to stop crying and the poor kid couldn't it broke my heart.

He was so sick

look at his poor eye... he felt so crappy and had a fever that wouldn't go away

both of them got sick!

we took benson into the children hospital because he was having trouble breathing. they put him on oxygen and sucked out his nose and took chest x rays to make sure he didn't have pneumonia. He just had bronchitis, but we had to be careful because it could turn into pneumonia

sawyer driving the car aound the room while we waited. he told me he was going to texas to see paul and manny

finally getting some sleep..

sawyer taking his "attention" that is what he thinks it's called i've tried a million times to correct him ,but he always says "im going to take benson's attention"

making sure he is ok

snuggling with daddy

sawyer trying to get better... in mommy's bed of course

finally better

snuggling while watching a movie in mom's bed

water babies

sunday's are hard

He loves the swing.

 Sawyer loves to lay on the floor with benson... Benson loves it when sawyer lays with him.

he always laughs and when he does he always has to put his hands in his mouth

He loves the jumper but it really wares him out! He falls asleep all the time.