I don't know what it is but I am so exhausted. Benson is sleeping like a champ and sawyer the same so why am I so much more tired then normal? Braydon is finally done with his microbiology class. thank heavens.  I've been trying to go out and do things park, playgrounds, splash pads, swimming, and calypso cove. It's been tough but thank heavens for great friends who help me with sawyer while I feed benson. It will be easier to go do things with Braydon that's for sure. It's hard to chase him and feed benson at the same time. Little stink;) it's also been very humid here. Like unbearable I'd rather listen to sawyer cry then go outside miserable. It's going to be a hot summer. I am in serious need of some dry heat! Our Utah trip can't come soon enough. My family friends and cafe rio is long long over due. I can't wait for people i love to see benson. He will be so big by then:( side note we bought another car a Honda accord. Although I was very unsure about the buy because we are so tight on money ( VERY POOR) it has been nice to have. Great on gas and now Braydon doesn't leave us car less on his drive days. We are so lucky to have this summer because Braydon isn't in intense schooling right now. Although he does still have school. He is home SO MUCH more. And we love it. I went back to the gym starting monday... and it kicked my trash. I am so sore. my tummy/abs aren't thanking me today. I am still healing so I need to take it easy when doing core training, but I really want to kick this body into shape.... it will take time though. We have been doing some bbq and volleyball nights at the park which have been a lot of fun. I can finally play!! Benson is growing. He had his 1 month check up a few weeks ago and he is in the 30 % for all. It's so fun to see the boys differences. Sawyer has a way bigger head. and benson has my small ears. Sawyer is really so good with benson, but lately he has been such a stink. He is thinks he is a superhero and acts like it 24/7 he get a little rough with kids and adults. Trying to keep pants on this kid is a joke. So he usually doesn't have pants on. Allergies are a rediculous right now. We all have them and it makes for a very sad baby and very uncomfortable toddler. It's realy sad and annoying. Sawyer is still keeping us on our toes with all the funny things he says and the outragous things he does. Benson is still a snuggle bug. He hates being alone and always wants me to hold him.

Sawyer's face after licking the brownie spoon

Bath time for this sweetie!

Sawyer is seriously so good with benson. Sometimes he does love him a little to much, but I couldn't be happier with how is acts towards him. He is very sweet with him.

I was making dinner and saw this! Sawyer just always wants to be around Benson... i wonder if benson is like... get me outta here

He had such an upset tummy that this was the only way he would be without crying. He just loved watching the tv screen

Calypso cove! so much more fun with daddy there. Benson even enjoyed himself. I love when he smiles at me.

Calypso cove. When we go without daddy he has to wear a life jacket. i am to worried about him

Sawyer wanted to take benson into his room to play... this is how he picked him up and daddy had to help a little bit

Daddy time! Sawyer is obsessed with his daddy. He is so happy when he is around and when daddy plays with him.

Watching superheros on tv

Tired boys! does this look familar? I have a million pictures of braydon asleep with sawyer on the couch in his scrubs

At an appointment... they had toy story 2 playing. Sawyer loved it of course.

Some of benson's faces... he is so precious

playing with shep at mcdonalds after story time

Benson's friends. Benson, mckell, and jack.

I'm hulk

Oh i'll just take the cushion off that sounds more comfortable and sit here to watch my ipod! What a silly kid

"mom look it's ironhide" off transformers. He had to have his picture taken.

Storytime at the library

That is sawyers sweet hat he got for being in the readers club for the summer! he got a bunch of other free stuff too! He loves the library

Just playing with mom while Benson sleeps

"mom i'll hold benson while you do stuff" ummm sure sawyer, but i just stay sitting by you while you hold him.

Playing in sawyers bed... being so funny and cute together.

happy boy!

to sleepy boys! as much fun as they are awake... i love watching them sleep.

playing with his buzz flashlight while wearing his buzz pj's

rarrrrrr i scared you mom

after swimming at the pool sawyer wanted to help fold laundry with me. he sat on top of the basket telling me what to do.

Having fun with dady!!

At the pool... the hot tub seemed like a better idea. it wasn't even hot and he thought it was a "baby" pool

So the other night Braydon told sawyer that if he cleaned up all his toys and put all his stuff away that they would have  sleepover in the living room. Sawyer cleaned up so fast and got all ready for bed... braydon quickly learned that it wasn't such a great idea when he was up all night with sawyer because he was either wanting to play or rolling all over the bed. I was told I couldn't attend the sleepover! It was only for boys, but not moms or babies. Such a cute story... they were wrestling on the bed and sawyer fell off, but braydon caught him. Well sawyer looked up with huge eyes and with a high pitch voice he said "you saved my life daddy... thank you for saving my life" where does he come up with this stuff?

This is how i found them at 7 am. I'm not going to lie I wasn't that sad that I couldnt attend there sleepover.

Church makes everyone tired.

don't you just love him?

He made this face for almost 1/2 hour

I could snuggle him forever!

at the splash pad with some of his friends.... Brooks, shep, parker and sawyer

Braydon had to read a bunch of papers so I took sawyer outside to squirt food colorng filled squirt bottles. it was a huge hit. he loved it.... sorry for the no pants. We just go with the flow

this is what i found sawyer doing the other morning. "just doing nothing mom" he says that when he is doing something he knows he shouldn't or doing something he thinks he will get in trouble for. oh the things this kid says!

Being a mother of two is a lot different then I imagined in my head. Somethings are so much easier and somethings are a lot harder. I was so worried about sawyer, but he is just so in love with his brother and is so sweet with him. The only time i have to help benson is when sawyer is loving on him a little to hard! Thank heavens he doesn't try to hurt him on purpose. Sawyer always asks benson if he wants to play with his toys, watch a movie, or read a book. He sings him songs and tells him secrets. I am still healling and I still get very sore (mostly at night after a long busy day) I kinda don't notice it during the day because i'm to busy. Saywer is still crazy and always GO GO GO. So it makes it hard to try and rest up and heal my body after a big surgery. He hates staying in the house and always wants to be outside. Thank heavens for a summer schedule so braydon can be around more to go do fun things with us! Lately Sawyer and I have been having dance parties in the morning and at night. It is so funny to watch him... this kid has some hilarious moves! We honestly can't get enough of these two boys! They make life so much fun and so much better. It's so weird to me that Benson has only been around for 1 month... it seems like he has been in our life forever.

Every time benson is awake Sawyer asks to hold him

"I love him mama"

Telling secrets. I asked what they were talking about and Sawyer said... "duh mom it's a secret"

Watching a movie in mommy and daddys bed

Talking to Benson. Making him laugh

Benson is really not sure about the bumbo.

Sawyer has the most beautiful eye lashes. I wish i had them!!

many faces of benson!

starting to get chubby!!

happy boy

Holding onto daddy late at night

Morning hang out time in mommy an daddys bed while i feed benson.

"just watching autobots mom" He loves transformers

This kids has the roughest life ever!

So sad he couldn't have cookies for dinner

hanging out with shep at the splash pad

sharing food

playing in the water

"Hold my head up mama"

Sawyer had a really bad dream the other night and ended up in our bed! it's been a long time since this boy has slept in our bed and that night I was reminded why

just so tired!

sweetest little face! love those lips!

he smiles ALL the time in his sleep.

just sleeping while his brother and i did a craft

this was a great night for me! Benson had reflux, sawyer had his nightmare and braydon was just tired.... no big deal i was just taking pictures at 3 am!

Ugh!! i just love this boy

Sorry for the very bad quality picture, but this was in the middle of the night and i tried to lighten it up. This face melts me!

Out on our morning walk!

Sawyer shared his ironman with Benson for part of the walk

Showing me his spiderman watch and his ironman toy

we got some juice and a popsicle on our walk. even at 9:30 it was super hot! He of course picked the rocket looking popsicle. Tomorow we are off to the splash pad with our friend shep!

Baby Benson- 1month

Benson really is the sweetest little things! He never cries, but grunts all the time and all night it's so loud! Braydon, Sawyer and Benson all talk, laugh, dream out loud in their sleep. Benson is smiling mostly at sawyer, but he doesn't smile nearly as much as sawyer did at this age. He makes us work for it that's for sure. He is a great eater... way different from sawyer. He is starting to gain weight. He was such a skinny little guy. He loves to be held. He grunts and grunts and makes mad faces until you hold him. He just hates to be alone. After he eats in the middle of the night and I try to put him back in his bed he just grunts and grunts. He gets so worn out that he just falls asleep, but for some reason he still grunts. I always want to kiss him. I can't help it. Both my boys get smothered in kisses all day.  Braydon and I are just in love with these two little boys! It's so fun watching Sawyer just be so in love with his brother. I can't wait for Benson to get bigger to play with Sawyer. I can already tell they are going to be best friends!