Dear santa,

Did your sled break down? Did you forget where I live? I am a little ticked that I did not get the simple request of a baby this year. Well, no baby yet and from the looks of things I will be going over the due date. I think i've just created a such a great place for this baby that he doesn't want to come. I tell him every night that he really wants to meet me, but he just stays put. Hopefully we will not go over the due date, but if we do we will be happy i mean really happy when he comes. It's time to give up this body suit.

Dear Santa,


I know that my due date isn't until January 5Th and I want a healthy baby, but I secretly would love to have a baby here for Christmas. I know that is a lot to ask and it's only for selfish reasons, but there isn't anything else I want. I have everything I need. An incredible husband, the best family and amazing friends. I am just really looking forward to meeting this little baby boy. If you can accommodate my wishes that would be so great.

thank you so much,


Erica

40 More days until my due date!!! I can't wait to meet this baby! I love feeling him kick. It's the best part of my day. I love talking to him while i drive to and from work. I love seeing braydon's face when he gets to feel him kick his hand. It's a priceless moment. It's going to change our whole life and I just keep thinking when he comes how did we ever survive without him? I feel so lucky and grateful that I get the opportunity to be a mom! I have wanted to be a mom my whole life. It is just what some people were meant to do and some were meant to do something else. I am so thankful for my parents and i'm so excited to watch them be grandparents. They will be so great and so helpful and i'm so lucky to have that. I am excited for my sibling I just wish that they would have babies soon, but no such luck maybe by my third child they will start to have kids. My dad just had knee surgery and will eventually have to totally replace both knees and i'm so thankful that he is doing ok. My brother ben started working with me after school and it is so much fun having him there. He is just so hilarious and it's pretty funny to watch him interact with people he doesn't know. He is a lot more shy then i am. Em is dating someone pretty serious and I like him a lot... i'm sure they are wedding bound, but I am apparently not supposed to say that so you didn't hear it from me!!! :)
Thanksgiving is such a great holiday, but for my little family it's some what bitter sweet. 7 years ago today we said our goodbyes and it just seems like yesterday. And i'm so grateful for the time we got to spend together even if some times were a little more rough then others. I still wonder when you will drive in the driveway and come home... silly thoughts i know. I'm so thankful that you are a part of our family and that we get forever with you and sarah. I'm so thankful that we know that we will see you again. How sad is it for people who dont know that. Well, I know how everyone is so sick of my blog pitty parties, but i hope you all have such a beautiful and happy thanksgiving.

Help!!!

So I need all the advice I can get from all the mommies out there... what is the most needed and wanted items, any advice for me as i'm approaching the due date sooner and sooner... I just want to get all the advice I can. I know i'm a little weird. Oh and side note I am loving the Christmas music and the girls at work are going crazy because I sing it all day. They won't let me play it so during my lunch hour I sing to it on my i pod. I am so excited for christmas not just because i love it so much, but because my baby will be here right after. I wish he could be here for all the holiday fun, but it didn't work out that way.

So my cute cousins Heather and Missy threw me my family baby shower!! It was so fun. I got the most darling gifts and it was so fun to get together. I stole this from missy's blog so you can see a few of the cute things I was able to get. My grandmother was so kind to let us use her house. This is making me more and more excited to meet my little man. I love presents, but for some reason I love baby boy presents for him then I do for my self. Thanks Heather and miss!!! I loved it so much and am so grateful for you both.

So we had a little celebration for my grandma's birthday this month! My grandma is actually doing pretty well. Some of you may or may not know that she is struggling with cancer for i swear the millionth time, but it's acutally number three. she is so brave and so positive. I feel so lucky that she is my grandmother. Well, for her birthday we each wrote her letters to tell her how she has impacted our lives and our testimony. We knew this would mean more to her then any present we could buy. Of course we bought her stuff thought. We found this darling brest cancer braclet at gardner villiage that we bought her and a whole bunch of pink items in honor of her and breast cancer month. How can anyone be as brave as she is? I don't think I would ever be like that if it were me walking in her shoes. Bravery is something I do not pocess. I went and had a piece of home made bread with her yesterday and tried to help grandpa cover his beloved fig trees to get them ready for the winter. We talked about everything. She is so funny and we talk about the most random things. She always talks to my belly which i think is really cute and fun. She is such a sweet lady and she's my grandmother and i love her A LOT!!

* here is a video my uncle grant and cousin andrew made for her birthday because they were unable to be there. It's darling! copy and paste it to youtube if you want to watch it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnkgU_XFsNY

jazz game, babies are here and an update

So yesterday braydon and I went on a double date with my siter and her boyfriend jon to the jazz game pre season opener! It was so much fun. We went to sky box had a quick dinner then headed to the game... where you know I had to get dip n dots because I LOVE Them. It was a blow out, but it was still fun to be there for a little group date. Jon thought it was the best thing of his life he was a little excited.






Dave and danielle welcomed their two baby girls presley and paisley to the world this week!! They are so tiny and adorable. I loved them even before i met them. I am so excited for their new additions and for their new adventure! Congrats mommy and daddy you made two stinkin cute babies. and i know cole is going to be the best big brother. Well, it looks like we only have three more months until our baby comes. I can't wait to meet him. Everything is looking good and he is growing at the right pace. I on the other hand have blown up, but isn't it worth it? WEll it is worth it to have a baby, but seriously i look pretty sick, but my nice husband tells me everyday that i'm skinny and beautiful.... what a liar!!!!!!!!! He is pretty good to me though. I am excited for conference weekend to hang out and relax. I hardly ever see braydon so it will be so nice to be together this weekend. I want to take a drive and go see the leaves. It is looking so beautiful outside.

Rain!!

I love the rain in the early fall!! I love that it isn't cold, but we still get some moisture. I love watching thunder and lightning. I am excited for fall and all the fun fall activities, but i can't wait til next fall because I will get to do them with my new little man and braydon. I got to spend a lot of time with my sister after her surgery poor sister. She had jaw surgery and i'm sure it wasn't that much fun for her. She is starting to have better days and better nights though. She had a rough first week. She looks really good. not very much bruising which is really lucky because everyone said she would bruise like crazy. Her swelling is starting to go down. I am glad we are on the road to recovery because it has been hard on everyone mostly her. My belly is growing and I feel really huge for being almost six months. I hope everyone feels that way about themselves so i'm not such a weirdo. Braydon has been so good though even though i never see him now that school has started. He tells me i'm skinny and that i'm beautiful even though I gave him a list of what he needs to say to me... at least he does it right???? Well, bring on fall and all the colors and festivities.

Sarah Jane

Oh sarah jane.... it seems like a lifetime ago some days and just yesterday on the other days. You were and still are so beautiful, so dang cute, and i'm sure still stubborn. Missing you isn't hard it's the being without you part I haven't mastered yet. It's hard to imagine what life would be like with you as a 16 year old girl. I'm sure we would be fighting off the boys and ben would be so annoyed that you would be in highschool with him this year. I sure do miss you a lot sweet girl and i'm totally ticked that you aren't around. And I won't get to see you hold my baby boy or teach him really naughty behavior. I hope you are having fun up there because we think it's pretty crappy that you aren't with us. Keep an eye out for us and help mom to find some sort of peace with it all she deserves at least that. missing you daily and loving you always!

It's a boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We had our ultrasound and What i've been feeling all along is true. WE are having a baby boy. I really didnt care what we were having, but I just wanted to know everything was going well. He has all limbs and his heart sounds good and everything looks good. We are so excited and can't wait to meet our new little man!

Is it a BOY or a GIRL???

I went to the Dr. today just to have my monthly check up, but of course braydon couldn't come so I have to have two appointments this week because he couldn't miss the ultrasound. So we get to go back friday morning and find out!! Today went great. The heartbeat sounds great and she says everything looks fabulous. I still asked her to listen for one more heartbeat, but she said i was to small to have two babies.... to small??? wasn't it just last week I was to fat? To small??? Say it again say it again.... YOU ARE TO SMALL was ringing in my head. That is right i'm not even thinking about two babies just the fact that small is just another word for skinny. ha ha. skinny it's just to out of reach for me at this point. I know she didn't mean skinny, but I could pretend for a few minutes. I would love people to tell me what they think we are having. And i will let you know for sure after friday.

So we had the wedding last week in the hot hot hot AZ! It was really beautiful. The sealing was FILLED with people who love them and it was really hot. Elder Kofford performed the ceremony. He did a great job he was so sweet to fly down there from utah. It was really neat because he sealed braydon and I. So that was a fun thing to share. WE had a luncheon after and then the reception later that night. It was really beautiful and it was mostly just our family hanging out in the corner because we didn't know anyone. Then it came time for the rockin dance party which i participated in the entire time. Yes people the pregnant lady out danced pretty much everyone. And you reading this know who you are. Poor braydon kept getting yelled at for having the mother of his child out there shakin her groove thing all night, but his response was you try and tell her she can't be out there... he's right it woudln't work very well. The night ended and the newly married couple drove off for their mini honeymoon. WE got back to Utah just in time to celebrate our 23 birthday. Which is really just another day, but it's a lot of fun to get presents and go to dinner as a family. Braydon could only come to dinner because he had a chemistry final the next day, but i was glad he came that long. We had the reception here last night and it was not a good time to get ready for it. WE had to do half inside and half outside in the covered area because of the chance of rain. It was fun to actually know people this reception and it was fun to see people we love. The night ended with a little dancing and then tired feet. All in all it was a great last week and i'm excited for paul and madison to start their journey and continue to grow in love. They are a beautiful couple. In 13 days we get to find out what our baby is!!! We are so excited and can't wait to know! It's just a really exciting time in our lives and we are so excited for this little one to enter our lives and make our family more complete.

Quick update

So summer is always such a busy time for everyone. This summer isn't any different. We have been doing a lot of fun things. Braydon took the first part of summer off of school and it was a nice change to get to be together a little bit more since we never see each other while he is in school. We go swimming every night at my parents house. It's just fun to be with my family in the warm pool with the beautiful sunsets. Four weeks ago we got to hear that babies heartbeat. It is so amazing and it was really fun for braydon since he isn't the one with the changing body the hormones and the feeling sick it's fun for him to be more apart of it. So we are to the 4 month mark and we are getting more and more excited everyday. I just see my friends as moms and i want that so bad. It really is a pleasure to watch their lives change and watch my friends grow up. Danielle is on the tail end of her pregnancy and I couldn't be more happy for them. I can't wait to see those darling girls. What a blessing to have two babies on the way. Cami is going to be a teacher this year.... how cool is that i really can't believe where life has taken us. Bridget is just off doing so many fun vacations and loving married life. We've been hanging out more with jessica. who i adore and i'm so happy for her jace and kellen. I know how special it is to have an enternal family. It's really crazy where life has taken us. It's funny. We don't talk everyday, but they are still so important to me and when we get together it's like we haven't been away from each other. I'm proud of them and where their lives have taken them. And i'm pretty sure they know how important they are to me. My dad's back is finally getting better. He is back at work full time and we are so glad that our old dad is almost back. It was a sad hard deal. he is so tough. Paul gets married in 18 days. Madison is in Arizona until the wedding and it's really weird having her gone we are doing all these fun summer things and it's not the same and it feels like our family isn't complete with out her. I am excited for their wedding i'm not excited to go down to AZ for the wedding in 106 degree weather. HOT!! Braydon is back in school so he has to fly down thursday night late and then we leave saturday morning. What short vacation. The fourth of july was super fun. We had our entire family over for a bbq and swimming then we went to the fireworks at davis high! I love fireworks they just are something i really enjoy. I am a little child i know. I know everyone's lives are so busy right now and i hope you are having a great summer!