Just Because

So it was just a normal day. I got up at 3 am because of course my body just has to get up at that time and i hung out in the living room for a while then i tried to go back to sleep and slept about 1 hour to get up at five to get ready for work. I got to work took care of all the dogs and opened up. It soon got busy at 8 when we open i wish i didn't have to get there before, but that is life. I eventually had to move to the back to get our two surgeries prepped and ready to go. I "knocked" down the first dog and we got his belly shaved (neuter and hernia repair) I was in the middle of scrubbing and hooking him up to the pumps when i girl i worked with said you got a surprise upfront. This is could mean a number of things. I have to smooth something over with our staff, smooth something over with one of your clients because my employees always seem to come to me because they say i'm a very good butt kisser, but i just say i'm really good at my job :) or it could be i need to talk to a salesman or something. So I went up front to find red roses. My husband sent me rose to work with a note that said i just wanted you to know i love you and i always think of you and i will be home late which is a norm since he doesn't get home til 11 or 12 every night. It made me smile and it made me feel so good. I'm so lucky to have my best friend in my life. I feel sad because some of the ladies i work with have really "hard" husbands who don't treat them well and who don't help around the house or with the kids and don't make them feel loved. They couldn't believe a man would just send you flower "just because" and it's the little things that count and they still don't believe that we didn't get in a fight or that he was just trying to make up for doing something wrong. The Lord has blessed me so much with a great family and a great husband.

My paul is getting married!!

My brother Paul is getting married!!! He ask madison today!! I've known for awhile now that they were getting married they have had it pretty much all planned, but i knew before they started planning. I had a dream about two weeks after i met madison that they were getting married. Paul just has never seemed so happy. She is totally different from all the other girls he has dated. She is so beautiful and smart and guess what I like her... well i actually love her. She has become one of my very best friends and i'm super excited for her to join our family and become a Belnap. Madison will tell you that she knew she loved paul when they went to the draper temple open house. Well, that is where he asked her. So we set up balloons and roses each of my family had written a note to madison telling her why we loved her and why were so excited for he to join our family. We attached them to red roses and then paul wrote a note to madison and attached it to white roses. She had no clue he told her he had to pick up a mission companion on their way to his mission Reunion and paul said he wouldn't be at the place for a half hour so they had time to kill so they decided to go up to the temple and walk around. WEll little did she know that the flowers were just around the corner and she of course started to bawl and he got on his knee and asked her. I am super excited for paul. He has been my best friend my whole life and i can't imagine him with anyone else and i'm so grateful he found someone who understands our special bond and still lets us be "twins" I can't wait for their upcoming wedding even if it is in Arizona. Welcome to the family madison! I love you both so much.

For all you "haters" She doesn't like people who don't like her "amazing voice" and she knows how good she is. This girl is named miranda and she is all over you tube you need to search she is fantastic!!! I haven't laughed this hard in a long long long time!!

Reasons why I need a vacation/cruise!

1. Even though it is starting to get warm I want the heat. I want to sit on the beach and relax read a book and watch the sunset over the water.

2. I need a break from real life. Work, cleaning, laundry, dishes, bills ect. It would be nice to get to spend time with braydon since we only really see each other saturday and sunday we are really really busy because of work and school.

3. sleeping in. I don't sleep well at all and it would be nice to not have to wake up and have any responsibilities.

4. You don't have to cook the food is prepared for you!

5. There is so much to do. Karaoke, comedy clubs, dancing, laying out, mini broadway plays, spending quality time with family and 1 am room service. It doesn't get better than that. Getting to relax and there is plenty to do.

This is only a few reasons why i want to getaway i am pretty close to having my parents convinced that it's a great idea too.

So Lately i have been trying to work on myself to be better... remember my new years goal? well, I came across this video off erin stock vail's facebook page and it penetrated my heart. I have a really hard time forgiving people. I trust you til you give me a reason not to and then it's near impossible to get it back. I have been hurt by people very close to me with their words and their hatred towards me. This video is a reminder that i need to forgive and be free. This video also teaches us to serve because it changes the focus off us and moves it to someone else and that is wad God does. Elder F. Enzio Busche was in my parents ward and i grew up with him. once as my teacher. He is so smart and so knowledgeable about the gospel. He is a convert and if you ever get a chance to meet him he has an incredible conversion story. The message i got from this video has made me inspired to be better. If you don't like serious or religious
videos move along to the next blog. It's not really for me to put this video on anyone else it's something that impacted me. I'm grateful for moments like that.

So these past few weeks have been really interesting. Last saturday I got the flu and that wasn't fun at all. Then monday rolls around and I have to be to work and i really didn't feel any better, but i had to be there. So I went and we were really busy, a lot busier then we've been lately which was nice in a way and bad in another. So we worked our butts off.After a 11 hour work day i had to drive up to Lds hospital to go see my grandma who had surgery on her knee because she fell two weeks earlier and she needed to get a new knee. Then, tuesday we were even more busy with 8 surgeries and a girl i work with left because she was sick and it kinda made me mad because she knew how busy we were and she wasn't that sick anyway. Then wednesday I went to ben's last season game up in logan and got car sick and that was just the best thing ever, but I wanted him to know i support him and that i really wanted to be there. It's important to him that we come. So i get to work on thursday still feeling a little weird from the flu and really no sleep, but ready to work. So we had to take x-rays of a really mean cat. We took a lateral and Ventral dorsal of the chest. A lateral is where they are on their side and a VD is on their back. So we took them, but the cat kinda moved on the lateral, but we wanted to run the x-rays to see and the cat was getting more and more pissed. Then we had to get blood from the cat and that was a joke. He was so angry at this point that it took three people to hold the cat and one to hit the vein. Well the dr. said that the lateral x-ray wasn't any good so we had to shoot it again. well we had a very upset cat and it wasn't very easy to get him on his side and kathy a girl i work with was hold him and she couldn't do it anymore so while she was still holding him I grabbed him and then she let go and went to grab a towel to wrap the cat in. while she was gone the cat kept trying to get out of my hold and was throwing himself all over the place so i had to let go and i did, but when you let go of a pissed cat you don't try and reach down and get it so i was trying to get out of the way and he lunged at me and grabbed my right hand with his sharp teeth. and i ripped my hand from his grip and there i was a bleeding mess. It got my palm and the top of my hand on the knuckles. I washed it to hard it hurt so it doesn't get infected because cats have such a weird bacteria called pasturella. It causes the area to swell and get very infected. So I went to the doctor right way and got on antibiotics. Hopefully it doesn't get infected. Right now it is looking good, but it hurts. I am thinking i really hope my week doesn't get worse. So friday i went to my grandma's and i took care of her for the day. We watched movies, slept (well she slept) talked and ate the food her neighbors brought. It made my week seem a little better by serving my grandmother. I am grateful i have the opportunity to do that for her since she has done so much for me and my family. Serving always makes you feel so great. I never really get to see braydon because he goes to school all day and some nights when he doesn't have to be at school til 11 he works at wingers to make a little money. So I really only see him on sunday. So saturday I hung out with my mom and then helped my grandma get a bath and i put her to bed. So sundays are always really nice because i get to be with braydon. We teach primary together and then we come home eat dinner and get in our sweats and watch movies. It's one of my favorite things to do! So all in all the week was a roller coaster and i'm hoping this particular ride ends soon so i can get on another one.

The truth about puppy mills!

I understand that not everyone loves animals and that is ok. You don't need to love animals to understand that this video is not humane and that puppy mills should be illegal. Most of my friends hate animals, but they know i love them... hello i work with them everyday. Puppy mills are cruel and disgusting i hate them. I got my sweet copper from Kansas. He was rescued from a puppy mill. He lived there his whole life and was only let out for breeding. He had rotten teeth, horrible ears, and was matted so badly he had sores on his body. I fell in love with him the moment i saw him. He is very afraid of men because he was abused, but he is doing so much better. He learned how to sit, speak and jump up. He knows when i say "get your toy" to bring it to me. I feel heartbroken that there are millions of animals left there to live their lives out and die in horrible cages without food or water never being able to touch the ground. I'm not asking you to love animals i'm just asking that if do or ever get one please don't buy one from a pet store!! And this is mostly about how much i love copper. I know most of you will this think this post is silly, but it's important to me so if you do don't read or watch it and most importantly dont comment about how silly or dumb you think it is because i don't want to know. Here are some picture of copper getting a bath, drying off, sitting with braydon, and him in his rain coat... yes i buy my dog clothes. I know i'm a weirdo.

Love love it!!!!!

Oh i just love ellen! She makes me so happy when i'm feeling down. And i know a lot of people don't like josh groban, but i love him. I used to sit in my parents study listening to him with my brother bubba. The song to where you are is really special to my family, but that isn't the point here. The point is she freaking rocks and i wish i could be funny and someone who makes people smile the way she does. I hope you enjoy.

Hello you single Gents

This stunning lady on the right is Tess. She feels as though i do not care enough about her because i haven't made a post well here it goes.

Tess is beautiful, very funny, and she likes boys. She makes me laugh a lot! She is crazy and very loud... seems a bit familiar right? Tess here you go. love you girl.

25 random things

1. I cry in the shower so no one knows when I cry
2. I like a clean house, but I hate hate hate to clean
3. I get hooked on certain food place and I go to them for three to four weeks in a row then I pick a new place and start the cycle all over
4. At my tiny house we do not have a bath just a shower and I love to take baths and so I go to my moms now and just take a hot bath, but I always shower after
5.I don’t sleep well at night I get up about 2 or 3 and that is that I’m up. And it makes me mad that braydon is sleeping so I move a lot to see if he will wake up and he never does.
6. I knew I would marry braydon when I was 16. he saved me after my brother died.
7. I love to watch movies at night with braydon, but since I hardly see him I’m stuck with tv shows… guilty pleasures as he would say
8. I don’t go to my siblings graves because I don’t like it, but if my whole family goes I will just stay in the car.
9. I had an imaginary boyfriend named pin when I was little because bubba and paul wouldn’t play with me.
10. I have the best friends and best family ever!! I think about them everyday and pray for them. They make my life better.
11. I do not like to cuddle that much, but braydon loves it mostly at night he likes to fall asleep cuddling. Lets be honest Erica would rather sleep… so I’m like no don’t touch.
12. I am a twin and I can tell when paul is sad or sick or anything like that. When he was on his mission I knew when he was sick and he never told my mom, but I would get letters or emails saying he was and I knew. It’s a weird twin thing.
13. I love going to lake powell with my cousins and family. Yes I’m very good friends with my cousins.
14. I cry when I see someone else cry.
15. I am terrified to sing or speak in public, but wish I could do musical and Broadway stuff. I love to sing.
16. I know a lot of secrets about a lot of people. Those who know me know that if they told me something and they told me not to tell I wouldn’t. You would die if you knew the stuff I knew.
17. I want to be a mom more then anything.
18. In high school I would rather have stayed at home then go to a party, but if it was a dance party I always wanted to be there… me and stomps belonged together I love to shake it and my friends know how much I love it.
19. I think I could win know the lyrics tv show. I can memorize a song really easily and I know a million songs.
20. I want to be on the crime against childrens task force. Yes I want to be a cop. I have wanted to do that since I was little.
21. I have really scary dreams a lot

22. Braydon and I read our scriptures in Portuguese every night and we say our prayers holding hands.
23. I’m afraid of the dark.
24 . I love going on cruises with my family. I would do it all the time if we had the time.
25. I am really big into trust and once you’ve lost mine it’s pretty hard to get it back.

Sleep over!

So this weekend we decided to have braydon's siblings and two cousins have a sleep over at our house. We picked them up last night picked up two movies "swing vote and kung fu panda" Then we picked up dinner and drove to our house. We ate our dinner got in our pj's and started the first movie. Swing vote was ok some parts were really funny, but all in all i don't think i really liked it that much. The kids said they were up to watch the next movie. I'm feeling very old at this point it's 10:30 and i'm thinking... i don't know if i'll make it through another movie without falling asleep so i said braydon are you tired. and of course he said no so he would stay up and then when it was over he would wake me up. Well, I stayed up and he fell asleep, but half way through all the kids were out so i shut the movie off and we went to bed. Well they woke up at 6 and wanted to go outside and see the horses and since i hate horses i just stayed inside and started on breakfast. regular pancakes and chocholate chip pankcakes eggs and juice. So i called the kids in when it was all done. We ate breakfast and finished the movie. We then played some games and we took them back home. It was a lot of fun to have people over since no one comes to our small house. I guess the kids had a blast and they want to do it next week... so i'm sure it will happen sooner rather then later. It was fun having them over. I love those kids so much.

So here is what we've been up to

* Date nights to some really good places

* We got new kids for primary since it's a new year and they are darling, but they are super shy. We love our calling and it's so fun to hang out with four year old kids at church. They are super funny and tell you stuff they shouldn't about their parents and tell really interesting made up stories.

* My moms birthday all she wanted to do was watch american idol and have take out.

* My mom is starting to walk yay mom!!!

* Going to ben's basketball games and making his girlfriend jackee hang out with us we really like her

* paul brought a girl home for the first time and she stayed the weekend. She is super fun out going and we really like her... yes i really like her. Her name is maddison

* Maddison and I went to bride wars together just us... anyone impressed that i did that?

* Doing some friend things I wish we did more friend parties and couple get togethers

* We hung out with jonny and missy til three in the morning one night just talking and laughing and didn't know what time it was. It's so fun to be with people you love.

* my cousin matt gave a great mission farewell talk on sunday. We are so proud of him.

* my grandma elen is now walking after she had a total hip done. She acts likes she is 30.

Exciting things that have happened!

* Danielle and Dave adopted a beautiful baby boy named cole! He is the most darling baby and he is so happy and everytime i see him I have to hold him. And even though i hardly see or talk to her i'm so happy for her and know this couldn't have happened to anyone more deserving. We are so happy for you!

* My cousin jen just got engaged to a really great guy named timm!! We are super happy for her and so excited for this new adventure.

* my cousin ashley is a teacher now and i'm know she is the greatest teacher and she deals with a lot of really interesting jr. high kids. She is really brave.

* My sister emilee has to have surgery on her jaw that will make her look completely different and the insurance won't pay for it... of course right and she asks everyday to look at her face so we don't forget it and to see if she sounds different because everyday her voice will chance because he mouth is so screw up.

* Braydon's best friend skyler married the most darling girl cambria. I feel like i've known her forever. She is just perfect for sky. She knows how to deal with him and he knows how to be sweet to her. We are so happy for them. Congrats you two!

* My friend kelsey jenkins is engaged to the love of her life chase duncan and gets married next month. WE are so excited for her.

Things in our life our really great! WE are poor happy and in love! WE are thankful for all the excitting things that are going on around us. And we hope things are going well for you too!

Today I went to a funeral of a 15 year old girl from parents ward. I went to high school with her sister Mellisa. Meg was such a beautiful girl who had such an incredible light about her. At the funeral when the family walks in and the congregation stands, I couldn't help but cry( and in a twisted and i'm sorry if this sounds horrible) and i couldn't help but feel so grateful that this was not my family and not us walking in behind the casket. I cried the moment I walked into the chapel. I feel so much sadness for this family, but in their hardship all they could talk about was how much peace and comfort they felt from the Lord. Instead of writing talks each sibling wrote a letter to their sister telling her about memories they remember about how great of an example she was to them, of her life changing light she had, or her faith. I didn't know her very well, but from what they were saying made me want to get to know the savior in the same way she knew him. President Monson came to her funeral. He said he read her obituary in the paper and had the spirit testify to him that he needed to be there. He gave a beautiful talk. He talked about paradise and how she is with heavenly father and she is ok. He talked about how in lives challenges we don't ask what if or why or how come. The lord knows us better then we know ourselves. Having lost a loved one it's so hard to not ask the why's or what if's. I feel like i have so much to learn from this sweet family. They are so brave. I wish I could be that brave. I wish I could have taught people to see and feel christs light. I wish i could have helped people the way that family helped me. It's funny how when people go through something so tragic and painful they are the ones who help the rest of us feel comforted. Megan's mom sylvie said that when they were looking for her while they were skiing she knew something had happened to her daughter, but she felt so much peace inside. And her dad found her and they both felt peace and that when she hit the tree she felt no pain. I am so thankful for the comfort and love the savior brings to people in times of sadness and pain. I am so grateful that familys are forever. I feel so lucky to have the gospel and to have the knowledge that he lives, he loves us, he knows us, and he will take care of us! I feel so lucky to know that my brother and sister are waiting in paradise for us with open arms. I think at times like these it gives us an opportunity to tell everyone in our life that we love them. The people in my life deserve to know that i'm grateful for you. I am grateful for your friendship and love. I'm lucky to know you. Tell someone in your life today you care about them. Because if you don't do it today sometimes there isn't a tomorrow.